I’m realizing lately why I’ve been so detached from everything, and why I find it hard to write. I’m lacking a specific passion. I read a lot of very focused blogs. People are passionate about fitness, food, photography… all these specific hobbies. In the meantime, I’m trying to balance all of the things that I enjoy, but would hardly consider myself an expert on in any way.
Don’t get me wrong – I have hobbies. Most of them are particularly nerdy hobbies – I play a lot of video games, spend a lot of time playing Magic with Mark, play a ridiculous amount of board games, and read a lot of books. This is between taking classes which I find incredibly interesting – but they’re things like Finance, Accounting, Ethics, and Commerce Law, and no matter how interesting I find them, I realize that not everyone feels the same way.
I love the feeling I get when an equation makes perfect sense. That “light-bulb moment” when the numbers fit together and everything works out is amazing. It can take me from being sad or frustrated to being completely happy. But how do you make an entire post about that? I know I’m not in the majority – most of the people I know can’t even stand math, let alone have a conversation about it.
On top of knowing that I’m in the minority for a lot of my hobbies, there’s also my fear of confrontation. How do I make a post about something I enjoy – like Magic, for example, or certain video games – if I don’t know I’m 100% correct? I don’t want people correcting me, or judging how I do things. It’s part of this strange complex I have. I like learning from my mistakes, but I don’t like being judged, so I try to learn as much as possible before I make the mistakes.
I’m working on finding my passion, I guess. In the meantime, I’ll keep trying to get over my fears, and maybe I’ll share some of these hobbies here!
If you have a hobby that you’re passionate about, how do you share it? Do you just spend time with other people who share your hobbies, or do you like to share it with people you think might be interested?