I’ve noticed something interesting lately. I don’t write here as much as I want to because I don’t feel like I have something worthwhile to bring to the table – if I write about nothing but my life, won’t it get boring? If I don’t have some crazy words of wisdom for everyone, won’t nobody read it?
Then today, I was reading a few posts from different blogs that I subscribe to, and something caught my eye. This person was posting photos of things that she had drawn, but adding disclaimers to them saying they were terrible. It’s something I do all the time – beating the person to the punch.
I make fat jokes about myself because I don’t want people to assume that I’m unaware of my size, even though being aware of my size is a constant thing for me, and is always on my mind. What would happen if I laid off the fat jokes for a while? I mean, I might start to feel better about myself, since instead of constantly putting myself down to prove a point, I might start to embrace the fact that there are good things about myself, and I don’t need to focus on the negative.
That’s what I’m going to try to do here, as well. Maybe I will break through and write more. Because this isn’t supposed to be the next great novel – it’s just a record of my life and my thoughts as I go along.